God's plan

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,
who have been called according to his purpose.

The moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside pushing us along. If we don't know how to pray, or what to pray, it's OK. He does my praying for me sometimes.  He makes a  prayer out of
my wordless sighs,  desperate thoughts and everyday whining. He knows me far better than I know myself.
He keeps me accountable.   That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.  

Today was filled with questions, sighs, and whining for me.  I had chosen a darling little girl named,
Carmen to sponsor.  I was overjoyed to take she and her brother into town this morning to buy
some necessities, such as clothing, hygiene products, and favorite food items.  Carmen and Walter
were beautiful, sweet, polite little ones ages 8 and 12 respectively.  I understood that they had arrived with the last children that came to Emmanuel.  I was delighted to help with children.  I couldn't understand how anyone could abuse such precious children.

As we returned from town with back packs full of our bounty, we took photos and laughed like
the happiest people in the world.  Walter and Carmen went back to their houses with a promise that
I would see them later this afternoon.  I was preparing for lunch when I received a message to
come to the main office.  When I arrived I saw Carmen standing with a group of adults.  She and Walter
were being taken away by some relatives.  Somewhere a judge had given custody to their aunt.

It was bittersweet.  I felt betrayed that Emmanuel let me bond with these kids, only to be taken
away.  I felt guilty that I was acting so selfishly.  I felt fear that the children would not be safe with
the sister of the abuser.  I felt joy at the possibility that they might be happy and safe for a lifetime
with their blood kin.  I felt a broad range of emotions.  I didn't understand at all.

I turned to the Bible.  Here was the verse.  Romans 8:28.  I prayed for understanding.  I prayed
for acceptance.  I am powerless.  I submitted that it is His plan, not mine.  I am at peace.  I will pray for Carmen and Walter tonight.  May they have been exposed to the love of Jesus while they were here
at Emmanuel, so that they know God loves them no matter where they are.